Good days and bad days

Saturday started off quite pathetically really and didn't get much better. 

Chris was still dozing so I thought I'd play around on my phone, check emails etc.  I'd received an email from a friend of Mum's.  It was lovely, very supportive and telling me how brave I am.  Well, that started me off.  I tried to do it quietly, honestly, hiding my face in the pillow, but as I couldn't breathe I had to come up for air occasionally!  This woke Chris up and I ended up sobbing all over him, the pillow, the bed, everywhere!  It's not a pretty site when I start, I can assure you.
The day continued along the same vein.  Another lovely email (thanks Auntie M), more texts, more tears.  Please don't stop sending them because they make me cry.  All the females in my family are wet; my aunt, my cousin, me and latterly my mum (she's a late starter!).
I am blown away by the support, care and love that everyone has shown.  I hate this disease for what it's doing to my family and friends.  Unfortunately, I've got it now and I can't change that.  I just have to deal with it as best I can. I don't want to live in a bubble, where life revolves around cancer. Life goes on and that's good.
It was a quiet day on Saturday, I obviously had too much time to think!  It got better though, because I had to rush around with the boys to get a Father's Day present!! Like I say, life goes on - thank god!

Today, Sunday, was much better.  No tears..........yet (ha ha).  We went to Kingston Lacy, a National Trust property in Dorset.  Managed to persuade Livi to ask for the day off, so she came too. 
It was a more normal day - well normal for us!  We didn't have enough bread for sarnies, so had to go to Sainsburys on route.  Then realised we'd forgotten the sun screen so had to go back home.  I would normally get stressed at this, but not today - loved it!

We had a really lovely day.  Vaughan drew the short straw and came round the house with me.  They all joke that I spend at least an hour in each room when I visit National Trust properties.  We compromised, I promised I'd be quicker, if he'd be slower.  It took us about an hour and a quarter to do the whole house.  Was positively dazed by the sheer speed!

Met up with Chris, Livi and Adam and trooped off to the Japanese garden, via the ice cream kiosk.  Kids were getting fed up by this time, but Chris insisted we go - it was Father's Day after all! The gardens and park are lovely. 

Then all too soon, we were back driving through the beautiful Dorset countryside towards home.  Back to football and cricket!!

Work beckons tomorrow, only another couple of days left before I go off - not looking forward to finishing.  But, hey, I need to do this to get better!