Sat here with a glass (large!) of rose, toasting Jan and reflecting on the last couple of days. (This could get emotional!)
Yesterday (17th) was brilliantly "normal". I'm aware that these will be few and far between in the months to come and so when they happen I am thankful. Started off by Chris creeping up on me in the shower and pressing his face against the door - think most of the town heard me shriek and the language (sorry Mum)! Sod! Kids to run to school and college and then work.
Caroline very kindly and gently (thank you Caroline) took my bloods for RUH (got it first time!) and my blood pressure. 1, 2, 3rd time lucky - have quite a nice reading there to ring in on Monday!
Gaynor and I sat down and went through a few things that I need to hand over before I go off on my cancer sabbatical - or sick leave as we know it. It's very strange having to think of things that I need to pass on to other people. It's my work! They'll be brilliant at it though. They'll find out they can quite happily do things without me and wonder exactly what they needed me for in the first place!
Once the kids had all been picked up and Livi dropped off at work, I met Chris for some pyjama shopping. Didn't find any so had to come home and order some online from good old M&S. Forgot to say, I ordered my first post op mastectomy bra on Wednesday - a rather fetching little frumpy number called Frances (!!!!!!!). Soooo tired, but didn't have time to nap 'til bedtime!
Finally, Friday and time for us to say goodbye to our Jan.
We printed a photo off that I'd taken of her during her last week at work, for Lynne to give to her family. Then I set about clearing my desk - I live in organised chaos! I know where everything is, but I don't think anyone else will. That was hard, I feel like I'm clearing it forever. I'M NOT THOUGH - you can't get rid of me that easily! More to do on Monday. Didn't get chance to get my blood pressure checked - will tell them I had a funeral to go to so thought it would be high.
Jan's funeral was at 14:00. We left a skeleton staff in the surgery (thanks to Marcia, Danna and Adrian) and everyone else attended. The service was short and simple. Had to check myself a few times. I knew if I started crying I would embark on a marathon session. There were some lovely memories from Jan's daughters and partner. Jan was unique, a one off. She was warm, loyal, caring and most of all for me a very funny lady. She had us crying with laughter at her tales. We will all miss her so very very much.
Got home and "Frances" had arrived. Couldn't wait to try it on (!). Oh joy - it's too big! It'll be even bigger after Thursday, so I'd better send it back and get a smaller size!
A close friend, Jaqs, came round tonight with love, hugs and support and most importantly a bottle of red! (I've changed the comment settings Jaqs, so you should be able to post now!) Thank goodness she cheered me up, the football's dire!
Anyway I have an empty glass.....................Cheers Jan.
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